Addiction, Pain, Sorry?

It's been a while
Since I could...
Hold my head up high
It's been a while
Since I first saw you

It's been a while
Since I could stand on my own two feet again

And it's been a while
Since I could call you

And everything I can remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
Consequences that I've rendered
Have stretched myself beyond my means

It's been a while
Since I could say that I wasn't addicted

It's been a while
Since I could say I loved myself as well and...

It's been a while
Since I've gone and fucked things up
Just like I always do

It's been a while
But all that shit seems to disappear when I'm with you

And everything I can remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
Consequences that I've rendered
Gone and fucked things up again... again

Why must I feel this way?
Just make this go away
Just one more peaceful day

It's been a while
Since I could...
Look at myself straight

It's been a while
Since I said I'm sorry

It's been a while
Since I've seen the way candles light your face

It's been a while
But I can still remember just the way you taste

Everything I can remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
To me... I know this pain
Can I blame this on my father?
He did the best he could for me

It's been a while
Since I could...
Hold my head up high

It's been a while
Since I said I'm sorry